Ugly is still ugly apparently

Today's' post for Sunday Scribblings is vision.

My vision for myself would be to happy/content in my life or the near future. I would like to live comfortably and not having to worry about money. As well as being both spiritually and knowledgeably enlightened.

So I've finished my summer reading books faster than I thought I would:
Uglies by Scott Westerfeld was a really good book and I'm planning on buying his second installment to the series Pretties.
(Got this from a fellow fan of the book.) Uglies is about a society where normal is ugly and ultra-pretty is the norm. Good looks get you whatever you want and being average makes you meaningless. Sounds like a pretty familiar extreme. Almost too familiar.

Its been a while since I read a book that held my attention so well and made me seriously think about the book’s world in contrast to our own. Westerfeld has a fantastic ability to weave social commentary into his novels without letting the reader in on the secret until well into the book. Uglies is a fantastic escape into a seemingly simplistic world that explodes in a torrential downpour of complications about love, friendship, social status and free thinking.

You find out pretty early that the Uglies world is our world, not unlike Heston’s ape-ruled world was also ours (less big reveal and more scary possible.) Its a world where the ‘Pretties’ get whatever they want and the ‘Uglies’ pine, mope and fight until they turn 16 and get to be ‘pretty’ themselves. This raises some interesting questions about our own society and puts a new spin on the meanings of ‘coming of age.’

To what extent do we value beauty? And how far are we willing to go to obtain that beauty? These are questions that Uglies has to answer and the response to those questions is more shocking than we might want to believe. And I found the authors blog!

Rebel Angels by Libba Bray was also a really good book and I'm planning on buying the third installment to the series The Sweet Far Thing.
(I also got this from a fellow fan. I'm to lazy and tired to do book reviews.) In the sequel to A Great and Terrible Beauty, Bray continues her saga of Gemma Doyle and her quest to restore the mystic Order. Gemma and her friends once again enter the land of the Order but, as revealed in the previous book, find it corrupted by the Realm. The key to restoring the Order is the lost temple. As the friends search for the lost temple, they encounter many obstacles to prevent their success. However, the young ladies are determined and you will find Gemma, Ann, Felicity, and Pippa engaging and entertaining. I enjoyed the first book but I found the second book exciting and hard to put down. Also paramount in Rebel Angels is the budding romance between Kartik and Gemma. This is a delightful read for young adults!

Both are great books and I recommend reading them.

Another tid bit from Girlosophy: a soul survival kit:
Traveling without moving
Travel is not only a physical experience- it can be a mental one as well. Which means you don't always have to physically travel to experience new places or people. All you require is a dash of curiosity, commitment, research-and an open mind. Mind travel allows you to do many things: enhance yourself, make decisions, give perspective-even change your life!
It's easy! Choose your destination, and then read up on it. Or, if a person you know has been somewhere you like the sound of, ask them all about it. See their photos and listen to their stories. Or take a break at home and immerse yourself in books, films, new friends, old friends, family, a new routine, or exploring an area close by that you've always meant to. The possibilities are endless and they all take you traveling. It will open your mind and lead to a growth in your awareness. And that, after all, is what we're here for.

Another day in the life of an older sister

Today was a doozy. My sister has Aspergers Syndrome and she is a high function autism. My mom put her into a hospital last thursday because she told the therapist that she was going to kill herself if she went back home with my mom. Come to find out she only did that for the attention and was upset when they wouldn't let her out of the hospital. So long story short, she was released today and my mom took her and I to her job so we can help her out. Do you know my sister threw a fit and wouldn't leave. My mom had to drag her onto the elevator to get her downstairs. By then it was almost 10:30 and my mom had to go get the car from the subway before it closes and we're stranded in D.C. Meanwhile I'm wrestling with my sister and trying to stop her from running away. I had to wrap my legs around her in a pretzel grip and sit on her to stop her from leaving. And then she tried to choke me with the key chain necklace. And that's when I got pissed off and dug my nails into her skin and told her to let me go. Do you know she just tightened her grip. So I slapped her and then she finally let me go. Don't give me that crap that she's autistic and all that bullshit. SHE TIGHTENED HER GRIP! She knew what the fuck she was doing! And know my throat hurts and I have a welt on it. Sometimes being the older sister sucks ass!

Crimson and Clover

Its been a while since I last did a Sunday Scribblings. So I decided to catch up.
Today's' post for Sunday Scribblings is:

Absurd: I understand that being a young college student has its disadvantages. That I'm suppose to be the coffee bitch, do the work that other people don't want to do, pay my "dos", and expect to have some sort of shit hit the fan. But this is getting ridiculous. I'm busting my ass to get were I want to be in life and it's still not enough. I don't have an internship yet and I go back to school in 8 weeks. I don't have any money to move for next month because my crummy job is only paying me minimum wage (which by the way I am grateful to have a job compared to some people). So yes I say this is absurd! I know I have some good karma saved up because I have been a good girl (and I use good loosely). I haven't wished harm on anyone even though some may deserve it and I do help people in need. So, when in the hell is that karma gonna start working?

Disconnected: I've been a little disconnected with some of my family members. I would like to be reconnected, but then again it's a two-way street.

Worry: I'm a hard core worrier. I worry about just about everything. But mostly it's money; like everyone else. I constantly worry about it because I never have enough to live... well to have the basic necessities in life. And it's hard working two jobs minimum wage and going to school full time. It's like what The Verve said in there song Bitter sweet symphony: "Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die." Sad but true.

Covert: Mmm... tricky one this is (whoa, a Yoda moment there!). Well mine would be that I won't have enough money to move next month and I haven't told my roommate yet.

Soul mate: Well that is one thing that don't truly understand. I believe that everyone has a soul mate or more than one in there lifetime. My cat is my soul mate. He seems to know when I'm sad and depressed and he always comes to comfort me in my time of need. Now for people it's a different story. I think I have more than one soul mate. Me and a friend of mine have been friends for more than five years. Normally I would get bored with that person, grow up, or just loose touch. But we've been thick as thieves even though we had a huge blow out last summer. As for my love life, I believe there is a soul mate out there for me. I just wish he/she would hurry the fuck up!

Another tid bit from Girlosophy: a soul survival kit

Karma
What you did yesterday will bear fruit in what you do and who you are today.This is karma in action. Karma is Sanskrit term, and is also known as the law of cause and effect. It's a doctrine which states that everything you do- good or bad- has a consequence. You can influence destiny by exercising your free will in a certain way. The beauty of this is karma can be built up and it can also be 'burned off'. Every new day is a chance to change your destiny.

On another note, my current favorite song is Crimson and Clover by Tommy James & The Shondells. Very cute song. I also updated my tunes for this summer and for once I actually have current music...well most of them are current.

As well as I finally got to see the new KOL video and I must say it's weird, but then again there videos are always weird. But I still love them.

Feels good, doesn't it?

Today's' post for Sunday Scribblings is Healing.

Well I can actually say I'm healing and I'm growing. I'm slowly facing my fears and remembering things that I didn't want to remember. Forgiving those I never thought I would forgive. Always remembering, but using it to make me a better person. Learning from my mistakes. Trying to take better care of myself. Not ask the mom unit for help. Becoming an adult. Of course I never said I had to be a mature adult...

Sad but true

Today's' post for Sunday Scribblings is Confession.

My confession is that I want to watch my school burn.

Why are people so intentionally evil? Why do people go out of there way to sabatoge you, just because they can? My group members purposely tryed to get me kicked out of the group. They gave me my fabric and patterns to my outfit a day before it was due. And sewed it in wrong so I hade to go back and fix it. Which put me behind. Why do people do that to other people if they find them a threat?

It's sad how far we've come and how little we've learned.

This birthday is not going to be fun...

Today's' post for Sunday Scribblings is Follow.

I follow everything and nothing. I follow certain T.V. shoes that got me hooked with there insane plots and hot characters. I follow movies with there insane action, drama, and suspense; that leave you wanting more. I follow music because the guy with the long hair looks really hot in tight pants. I follow books because in there world your not the only freak with fangs or mutant powers. I follow nothing because people sometimes aren't worth following. Besides, I'm to old to play follow the leader.

So tomorrow is my 24th birthday and so far what I have planned is to do homework and get completely drunk afterwards. Sad, I know. I originally wanted to go to the Kings of Leon concert tomorrow because... well that would have been cool. There four hot guys who can actually play guitars and drums and it's on my birthday! But that was a bust because I can't afford the tickets. And since I can't go to the concert tomorrow, I'll just put some of there music in "My Tunes" box.

There still the only guys that I would openly admit look really hot in tight pants!

Then I was going to do the Invisible Children walk with my friend were we walk like 5 miles and pretend we're being kidnapped, with a whole bunch of other people, like the kids in Uganda. Then there was something about sleeping in the park. I don't think I want to sleep in the park with a bunch of rats. And the rats in Philadelphia are the size of cats; I know I seen a few. So homework it is.

So here is some of the work from the senior show at my school. I got there card, so you'll know who did what.

I really like this one. The tea idea is so cool.

This artist work was so moving. It was so sad because everything that is in her piece is true.

The wall of tongues is a form of punishment for her for talking about her past. Each tongue is the years or times she talked about it.

I don't know what this is but it's really cool. Reminds me of "Burning man."

This one is cool because it's all made from copper wire.

If you look closely at the glass you can see a figure that has half flesh and half muscle.

These are bones. Her idea for the whole work of art was to have a full human body broken into pieces and placed into each furniture.

The red liqiude represents the blood.

In the father clock there were kidneys.

I really like this one. It has sea shells on it.

I really like this one.

More to come next week...

Cock-in-a-box

Today's' post for Sunday Scribblings is Language. Language is a universal thing. It's something that everyone has and/or use. I find it to be very intresting.

So to celebrate easter, I cleaned up my room(finally). Then I went to south street with my friend. She took me to Fat Tuesdays, which I have to say is the best fucking place on earth! They have alcoholic slushies!. I got swampwater which is basicly a margarita, 190 proof, and some other drink in it. Boy was that really good. Then we went to Mood were I met one of the supivisors, that works at my school, working...part time. It was a real ackward moment being that I had the porn version of the Munsters and the Brady Bunch in both hands. It was even more ackward when my friend was buying me a vibrator( yeah... for my early bday present, she got me a vibrator. I know... weird.) at the register. Sooo basicly one of the supivors at my school sold us a cock-in-the-box! I find this very funny and won't be able to look at her the same way again.

On another note, I'm making some life descions within the next week. My friend, who happens to be my old roommate I lived with last year, offered me to move back in with her and I think I'm going to do it. I can't afford to work 2 jobs and do my internship over the summer and save money. My apartment is $600 a month with everything included. Sweet, I know. It's right in center city philadelphia and it's a block away from the school. However, if I'm working 2 jobs for minimum wage it's still not enough and I end up living from paycheck to paycheck. I'm not really happy and I haen't been for a while. I'm going to move either way and I know my mom won't like it, but at the end of the day I have to live with whatever descion I make and not my mom. So I was thinking of moving out and just not telling her. But part of me is saying not to do that because it's not nice and the other part is really excited about defying my mom. But hey people defy there parents all the time and besides I'm going to be 24 in a week so I have to be an adult eventually... or at least act like one.

So here is some art work from the student gallery at my school.

Look out for Kelly Kozma! She's a great painter. This painting and the 2 after it were all made on streched fabric and then painted on. I love this. Her artwork is great and new because I honestlly didn't know you could paint on fabric like you would paint on canvas.

The 2 artworks below are actually collages combined to make one art piece. I love both of them.

This one is pretty cool.

The rest are prints made by hand from our textiles design department. I like all.